Thursday, October 19, 2006

Peek a boo! me again.. boring life i haf..sigh.. Dunno wad to do n how to express out my feeling or in appropriate way either =(

Do that person I luv understand me well? Do i understand my love ones well? Till nw it still a question mark to me!.. DuNNo why n dun wish to noe either. It onLy make bOth parties sad, moodless even heartbroken.. wad for?

This 3 days my relation happen alot of thing.. LOTS of unhappy things had happened.. LOTS of conflict.. make both of us unhappy... Asking myself, why in a sudden we haf soo many conflict? wHy? hW come?.. isit becos contact too often or.. wad? i dun wan to think n imgine.. :( cant find a value reason for myself.

Think Back ----- 3 day ago alots thing had happen.. those conflict onli happen wif him.. and other weird weird thing happen wif my frens.. hahas.. make me cant 4get it..
Wad actually happen between both of us is... He angry, upset and disappointed me.. Angry becos i nv reply his sms.. and he feel tt i 4gotten him when i go out wif them.. upset becos those unhappi thing had happen.. disppointed cos i smoke.. n nv reply his sms.. am i rite? u noe urself..
Here i gotto make things clear.. haf relationship doesnt mean i got to gib out my frenship.. or stop knowing new frens.. Know wad kind of friends is my privacy.. is my own social circle.. i no need ppl to care abt my social circle.. And no matter i go out wif Boiis or gurls.. it still the same.. oready said those ppl r my fren it simply mean i oNLy treat them as my fren nothing else n i belive they treat me the same.. treat me as their fren nothing else got thing oso liddat..ppl use 2 hand to clap if i dun wan give my hand hw can he clap -.-..

I know that u hate i play online game w/o u.. U worri i flirt ard rite?.. same as me.. i hate u play ONLINE games too.. i mean ALL ONLINE GAMES... games r just an entertainment.. i dun wish u too take it soo seriously.. if u gotta tell me u wan play oso must play wif all ur heart or ur skill.. i rather u dun play ani games ani more.. frm today u saw my entry.. getting fed up.. u play game oso can play until u 4get hu am i?.. im ur gamemate.. as well as ur gf when playing game keep this in mind.. mayb other can torrate u liddat but not me.. n all those rubbish will come out when u play certain game... I HATE THAT.... u got this u dun lyk i oso got.. dun alway think all thing u do r rite.. n all thing i do r just rubbish.. indeed im stupid but doesnt mean i wont do right things..

Until nw few days pass i still can remember wad attitude u gimme n ur tone.. make me cant 4get.. wan me change.. i change, change to a straight forward person.. Can u take it? problems doesnt lie on me everytym.. Alot of thing make me feel veri veri disappointed u know?.. U ever realise it? Those answer u gimme.. n action u do to show me..

My tear start to roll out of my eye again hu know?.. Reflect it.. think we been together nearly 2mths.. ALOTS things happen.. things change oso.. i realise it.. example.. the veri 1st tym i meet u.. n 1st tym i play game wif u.. Full of those memories that make my cry.... Feeling realli change.. abit by abit i belive.. more conflict wee haf.. our condition turn worse.. long tym we together feeling mayb beta or bad.. no ppl noe.. wad will happen in the end.. will we together no1 noe..

Im sry if my words hurt u~

DeaDxGurL pen off 4.48am

10/19/2006 04:49:00 PM