Friday, February 23, 2007

haish... todae nv go skool at all :S.. staying at home sleep n dream...

This is de 3 time i dreamed him...

rmb 1st time i dream was... he will ask fer patch but wif something on his hand n tat thiing in his hand is giving tuu me.. :x

2nd times is nort that sweet aniimoOre ler T_T.. I dream wad i pass go tuu his new rented hse.. Think just go up sit sit fer awhile.. wen i knock de doors fer feel tiime a guy opened da door.. He look at me very firece n asked me who i lookiingq ferr.. I told him i lookiinqq fer ex.. he told me he haben come bak.. he want me come tuu sit while waiitiing ferr ex tuu come bak.. I did going his room n wait fer him.. while waiitiing i heard outside alot of noise so i oopen da door n peek.. i saw tat guy who open de door justnw ferr me is a prevert.. he take out his pant n force his wif tuu help him do thiingq his child is outting cryiing tuu.. make me so scare =.=""... He keep pulliing his wife hair.. poor wife.. push the door n door opened she rush in tuu look fer help.. but i do nothiing... tat guy drag me in tuu T_T.. so terrible place i at tat time.. i was running all over the hse lyk a idiot.. sooner a pretty gurl open de door.. the guy stopped his act.. i rush bak tuu my ex room.. tat pretty gurl walked in tuu tat room tuu.. i was shocked... i wanna fiind thiing in my ex room.. tat pretty gurl ask what am i fiindiing... after i told her she turn her head n take wad i 1.. i cant imgine... i dun even noe wad am i doing when i wif my ex.. i dun even noe where he put his thiing.. but tat gurl kknoews.. by look i lose her. by related? i thiink i lose her tuu.. im just a failure i tell myself.. i just dun fit tuu be ppl gf.. tears rolling in my eye.. i tell myself i cannt cry.. my ex fiinally cums baks.. n i thiink is time ferr me tuu go.. he asked me, hw cums i come here? i told him ii just drop by n c hw ur life nw? hmms u live pretty while am i right? tat pretty gurl can help euu :D while i think i gottogo...cya :).. He said he send me bak... but i insist no.. he said aleast i send u tuu downstair.. i smile n him okkaiess... tear keep rollin wen i saw him.. harts so pain.. i dun even noe wad am i tuu him n wad is he thinkingq.. inside de lift he scolded miies.. he scold miess becos i go his hse.. his hse is a veri dangerous ferr gal tuu come in.. i on the spot cry.. cos i so such a failure.. i cant protect myself.. i cant do my part as a gf.. he hugged me n wants me tuu stop cry.. i just wanna cry.. just let me cry please.. after tat my bus come.. i go out wif my 2 red eye dens i wake up ler T_T... just niice 6 plus in da morning.. haas go skool time :P

just nw.. i dream abt him tuu... i dreams abt i got his baby.. i give birth tat baby at Malaysia.. after few day i go fiind hiim.. whiile my baby in hospital.. 2 nurse insist tuu follow mee.. cos ther say i tuu dangerous tuu go alone... when i reach ther i saw him sleepingq.. i din wan tuu bother him up.. suddently.. my stomach paiin lyk shiit.. i go tuu the toilet.. i haf been sitting on the toilet bowl ferr 30mins over.. nurse come inn n fiind me but i just ignore.. cos it damn pain.. pain until i dunno hw tuu say.. when i heard his voice.. i faster wear my pant n wash hand come out.. when i walk tuu the bed n sit ther i told him.. our baby is a girl... she so cute.. wad his replied was orh.. i asked him wad name we gonna gif her.. he said anithing.. WAD THE... i use cane n cane him.. i say hey baby is u say keep de.. if u dun wiish tuu wan her tuu come tuu this world u shld tell me early.. n u gif me this attitude...
wad he saay.. can i dun wan dis baby? abortion? u willing? u wan? will it b ur shadow?
i broke up n cry.. dun wan nvm i bring tat baby bak.. i ownself support her... i just regret gif u all this advance.. after that u dun wwan tuu gif ani responsiblity..

i just wonderiing is he realli liddat... mayb dream r true.. i shld gif up him b4 tragedy comes

2/23/2007 02:28:00 PM