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Sunday, September 30, 2007

I CAN'T FEEL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ii can't feel his love any more . ): . ii getting more n more independent . seems like ii not in the FIRST person in his heart (: . everything he did to me let me feel iim more n more independent .



everyone saying im NOOB ! STUPID . ahahas . ii tell myself this is from my view . maybe his view is another reason . (:



budd everything he did now . telling me . ii dun worth doing such thing to him . (:



everything is more important dhen me . :'( . this is loves or love ? or this is a LUST ? lmaos .



from the dayy we been together ii hope things will go well like last time . go oud happily n go home wit a smile . budd in the end ? hmmms . seems like alwayy go oudd happily budd backk wit loneliness . ): . ii dun wish to say oud those unhappiness any more . let his lack cares cover my loves n slowly ii will walk away wit whardd he gives me .



this coming sat . his birthdayy . budd ii dun wish to go his hse n celebrate wit him . ): maybe ii will stay his hse on fridayy n sat noon go home . since iim independent so ii can go back home alone as usual .



I dun feel im first in his heart anymore . dhere no reason for me to put him my first IMPORTANT PERSON in my heart .



im selfish . the first important person in my heart will alwayy be myself from this moment onward .



(: 我会静静静静再也不去理 .



` 你再也不用跟我讲好听的话 `



你是我的宝. 我是你的草. `
我不会傻傻地当你的草一辈子`
是你让我感受到. `



我不会让自己受委屈.




9/30/2007 07:00:00 PM