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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

this will be mye last post till the dayy ii fully heal mye wound .
i nv regret having LIMWEIJIE in mye life . thou it is not forever . i knew it . i knew he won't be wit me till the end of his life . but this is whard he promised me . he will never leave me till the end of his life .
all his promises he nv did it !. i choose to " gou gou shou " make all the promise , becos i worry he will nv did it . either he nv put it in his heart or he wants to make me happy for the moment . a short moment of happy .
as i said in the past post . he hurt me deeply . very very deep . mye 4th lovely anniversary be come mye hurtful anniversary . im jealous . hurt . heartbroken . so ? is all mye business . cos im noo ones else to any body .
from the start of a mapler ( ign - niuniuDK ; moomoo369 ) chalet . i told myeself . this is the last time n is the every last contact i will haf wit him . is not i hate him is i love him . i love him truely deeply from the bottom of mye heart . i dun want to keep all the memories he give me anymore . cos is the most hurtful things i get from him . bud that day he dun want to turn oud . totally sad . i asking myeself isit whard god gives to me ? is god want me to gain more exp or just fooling mye ard . i totally sad . i drink . i told myeself i must end everythings . and that day is a day from me to endd all mye sorrow . mye last moment of HAPPINESS is right dhere . i will endd things dhere . tmll will be a better dayy . budd i fail . im drunk , criedd . criedd painfully . imHIM DEEPLY ; ilHIMDEEP DEEP . i can't haf mye life withoud him bud i haf too . i dun wants . budd i stil haf too . *heart broken *
lots of things happened in the chalet . alots of words came oud from his mouth . i believed whard he say . bud no point liddat . cos he will nv come back to him . this blog , posts , myeSHOUT , song all is for him .
no VALENTINE for me anymore .
whard i haf is THE DAY HE LEFT .
i will not celebrating 21 every months bud 17 . the day he left me . 11:25 pm .
i went to the chalet again . i knew we will nv be friend anymore . cos im CRAZY n DEEPLY HURTS . i start mye hate on him again . i hate him using that tone talking to me . i hate him like this treat me . i just no body to him is wad he show me . am i a important person in his heart right nw ? i dunno n i dun want to know any more . he just a perfect stranger to me from the moment he walk pass me . i dare to say i love him more den i hate him . i dun want let mye love cover mye hate anymore .
everythings to me is just like a nightmare . a hurtful nightmare . god are selfish will i alway be the one be the one get hurt more dhen men .
BGR RELATIONSHIP GONES . MYE FRIENDSHIP GONES . I LOST 4 FRIENDS DURING THIS SHORT 1 WEEK . I DIN FEEL REGRETED . COS HE IS WHARD I WANT ACTUALLY . I DUN WANT FRIENDS I WANT HIM . BUT THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME ANYMORE . I WILL LET MYE HATE TO COVER MY LOVE N FORGET HIM . DHEN HE WILL BECOME A PERFECT STRANGER . (: MAYBE THIS I WILL BE BETTER .
LOVE HURT SUX !
I LOVE HIM MORE DHEN ANY ONES ESLE OUT DHERE RIGHT NOW .
BUD HE FEEL MISERBLE BEEN WIT ME .
NBM DHEN .........
LET MYE HATES OVERTAKE LOVES .
WHARD I LEARN IS ......
LOVE IS NO LONGER THE MOST IMPORTANT A RELATIONSHIP .
TRUST IS NO TOOOO
WHARD IS THE MOST IMPORTANT IN A RELATIONSHIP IS HAPPY .
W/O LOVE BUD IUE STAY HAPPY WIT THAT PERSON IS ENFU .
SO.......................
NXT TIME I WILL LEARN TO BE HAPPY WIT HIM BEFORE I LOVE HIM .
IM FOOLISH . I LOVE HIM 1ST BEFORE I GET HAPPY .
THIS IS THE ENDDING I GET .
NO LOVE NO HURTS . NO HURTS NO PAIN .
NO PAIN NO GAIN .
PAIN I GET A LESSON .
HATRED`exanne .
I START MYE HATES ON LIMWEIJIE FROM 23 OCT 07 N THIS WILL BE FOREVER .




10/24/2007 01:04:00 PM