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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

a very strong feeling of missing someone just came to me . imissingaperson who i once loved .
i started to miss all those laughter , tears and a lots more we did together . we choose to been a friend after many incident and ofcos we get a distance from each other . i will never stop getting excited whenever i see hhis call appearing in my phone . i will never expect hhim to read this entries . cos everything that lead us quarrel will always be my faults . is im too stupid to avoid quarrel . yyou didn't do much things for me but yyou left me a deeply memories of ue existing in my life . imissyous .

remember yyou asked me to last long with my boyfriend since hhe is a good guy . yes i do . i do try to love hhim with my whole heart , fully && truly . i fail . i try very very hard to love hhim fully . ): i will be hurting hhim deeply . im selfish , indeed . i can't afford to lost a good boyfriend like hhim . so i try very very very very hard . but whenever im free to think back things my tears started to roll out of mye eyes . everything is so unfair to hhim . in fact i really go tell hhim straight forward . ii told hhim " yyou no need to love me so deep . i didn't even love yyou so deep like yyou love me . in fact i no longer know how to love people more then i love myself . hurts for me in enffu . pass lover turn into monster in my dreams and my dreams had turn into nightmares too . nightmares had turn to shadows for me .

i just hope that if one dayy i really left hhim && continue my life alone ,
hhe can smile and walk aways with really no pains .

loves is just a feeling tht no one can expected .
ilovehhim with one truly heart but he isn't my ones .
when hhe started loves me more then ilovehhim
hhe just making me worried more && more
whenever i think of hhis life aft i go
will alway think of my life aft my loves ones went off
loves isn't a sweet thing in the end .
but loves can make uue smile like an angel
look like a princess .
UNEXPECTEDfeeling .




8/13/2008 03:55:00 AM