BUT I WILL NEVER DO THT ......

THT DOOR IN MY HEART IS ALWAY LOCKED.....
I TEARS AND TELL MYSELF IS GOOD FOR ME TO LET GO HIM AND ABORT MY PRECIOUS .........

I DID IT !!! [:
I DID LET HIM GO IN MY HEART BUT NOT MY PRECIOUS...

SINFUL ......
IT A SIN !!!!
I KILLING MY BABY WITH MY BOTH HAND ....
YOU KNOW WHAT ......
I CREATED HIM TOOO ....
NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL IN THE LOCKED ROOM.....

A LIVING THING ....
HUMAN .....
INNOCENT KID.....
MURDERER .....

HAVING THE KID ??
AHAHAHA .... CAN I AFFORD ? ...
MAYBE ???
NO ???
YES ???
BEST ???
AHAHAHAS . ISN'T A SIN TOO . AHAHAH
I BLAMING MY PARENTS WHY CAN'T UE ALL GIVE ME THE BEST ?
CANNOT AFFORD THEN WHY LET ME LIVE HERE ?
IS MY KIDS GOING TO SAY THT TO ME ?
HAAS . MILK POWDER , PAMPERS , CLOTHES ,EDUCATION , WANTS , NEEDS . CAN I AFFORD ALONE ?
CAN I GIVE BOTH PARENTS LOVES ? CAN I UNDERSTAND HIM ?

ALOT OF QUESTION I GOT TO ASK MYSELF . WHAT ABOUT THE MALE ( JUSTIN NG WEI WEN ) ? WHAT ARE HE ASKING HIMSELF ? WHY AM I SO LOUSY ARHS ?? WHY EVERYONE BLAMING ME ? lol .

WHY NOT ???

WHEN I NEED A PERSON REALLY CAN UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL WHO KNOW ? ...
I FOUND 1 TODAY ....
A LADY THAT HAVE A 2 YEARS OLD BABY AND WHO LESS THEN 20 THIS YEARS . SHE UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL ....
SHE TOLD ME NO PEOPLE WILL ENCOURAGE UE TO HAVE IT . BUT ACCEPT ABORT ... YOU NEED TO SUFFER URSELF ... THINK ABOUT IT ... IF YOU LOVES TO CLUB, DRINK , PLAY THEN BETTER NO ... CAUSE YOUR LIFE WILL BE WORK , BABY , WORK , BABY . NOW SHE NOT MARRY BUT SHE HAPPY WITH HER OWN BABY AND BOYFRIEND ... BUT ME ... lmaos ...

BOTH ARE SINFUL .. NO PEOPLE GONNA HELP ME .... EVEN PEOPLE CLOSE TO ME ... PEOPLE IS GIVING ME MORAL SUPPORT ONLY .

THINK FOR SO LONG ... I WILL STILL NEVER GET THE CORRECT ANSWER ... I DECIDE MYSELF ... IF BABY 4 MTHS OREADY I STILL CANNOT HAVE A GOOD ANSWER FOR MYSELF ... I PREFER END EVERYTHING ... LIVING LIDDAT REALLY IS A PAIN FOR ME ... I SUFFERING NOW .. FEEL SICK , NO PEOPLE UNDERSTAND IT TOO . EVEN JUSTIN NG WEI WEN SAYING IM ACTTING . ACTTING SICK . DON'T WORTH 10K . DISTURB HIM . lol . CAN UE IMAGINE ?

HE WANTS TO BRING ME TO POLY CLINIC CHECK HOW MANY MONTHS MY BABY IS .... BUT HE NV BOTHER TO BOOK OR CHECK IT OUT HOW TO DO IT .... I FOUND A PIRVATE CLINIC MORE FAST THEN HE . I EVEN BOOK AN APPOINTMENT . HE ? FEW HOURS BEFORE I GO FOR MY APPOINTMENT ASKED ME TO GO POLY CLINIC DO . IS MORE CHEAP . lol . IS IT FAST? NEED TO TAKE OTHERS DAY ? HE DONNO . HE IS A GOOD / PREFECT MAN . AHAHHAAHS ..

I'M PREGNANT ....... HE BOUGHT ME OUT TO VIVO ... I ACTIVATED HIM AT 5.3O ON THT DAY ... HE REACHED MY HSE AT 9 PLUS ... I DRAG MY TIME TO BATHE AND WATCH TV . CAUSE FROM VERY HUNGRY TO FCUKING HUNGRY TO FULL . NO POINT RUSHING MYSELF ANYMORE.. LMAOS . I WENT DOWN 10 PLUS LIDDAT ..... WE ATE ROTI PRATA ... THEN WENT VIVO ... I ONLY SPEND HIS FEW DOLLARS ON BEN AND JERRY ICE CREAM .... NEXT IS IM TIRED . HE BRING ME TO HOTEL REST ... REST ? THINK HE SO GOOD ?? LoL . IN THE END WE DO 3 ROUND . DO I LOOK OR SOUND LIKE PROSITUTE ? YES I DO .. I REALLY THINK I DON'T WORTH ANYTHING ... HE CRYS AND TELL ME HE LOVES ME .. LMAOS . LOVES ME ? IM THE LAST GIRL ... HMMMMS ... SHALL SEE YEAS ....

I'M WRITTING THIS IS WANNA PEOPLE TO KNOW HOW DISGUSTING YOU CAN BE .... MORE ... I WILL WANT YOU TO PAY IF I'M PAYING MY SIN . YOU CREATED THE SIN WITH ME .. PAY WITH ME TOO . UNDERSTAND . I REALLY HATE YOU .. I HATE YOU BY PUTING THE SIN ON ME ONLY .

I PAY FOR KILLING MY BBABY . AND YOU PAY FOR HURTING ME AND MY BBABY . UNDERSTAND . BECAUSE OF U'R AND MY SIN I'M DOING THINGS THAT NOBODY BELIEVE .

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I'M A GIRL WHO CAN LIVE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU ... BUT YOU CAUSE ME TO HAVE TEARS AND LETTING ME FEEL THT I A MURDERER ... THANKS ... NG WEI WEN JUSTIN .